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whoaaaa! until now i'm still thinking WHY SHOULD ME? why just only 2 of us whether lots of girls can be the candidate. but for sure, this ain't my point.

 surely, it is so unpredictable moment STILL i can't believe. i never want to be that one. my brain never let me to think that. but reality gave me more. life is not what we will guess.

 but truly now, slowly but sure i can accept that. i will survive with that. i don't wanna be a winner, but i just can make myself tough to face the process (ahyes, actually this is a praying). because i know God never let me longer with the problem i cannot solve. the caused i was be here -in this position- is because God knows i can pass it whether it makes me crying insane.

 this is the way i must change myself more. FOR SURE, God still gimme chance to upgrade myself to be better human, by letting me into 'this position'. so, no reason for me to put off my chance to be the better one. to realize that God still cares about me :')

 and this make me realize that i must proof my responsibility. actually i'm not as good as others for responsibility. but not worse at all. by this, God wants that i must show up my capability. in this case: responsibility. wer wer wer

 i know it's hard to death, but beyond myself, i can pass through it. whatever the result, i just trust i can. and God knows i can be more than i think. bismillah. 
ok this is just a cheering post for myself. so, thank you for reading :)
learn for leading :)
for better BEM 2012-2013!

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